Hospital....hospital....

Hospital...i went to hospital these two days...tgk my aunty...
the horror part of the hospital is the EMERGANCY ROOM...
where i can see blood is everywhere...and people die in there..
urgh...takuttt...!
my aunty sakit...actually we don't expect that she had a serious infection...or anykind of disease..
dia just sakit perut...
then...last sunday, dia tak lalu makan..mulut banyak ulser...
and dia ckp tak sedap perut...which is ade something wrong dgn perut dia...
then...mlm ahad tu dia larat...esok pulak dia mengadu sakit...
dia seorang yg sgt susah utk sakit...and susah nak ckp sakit..
then her husband took her to the clinic, to see a doctor...
the doctor said maybe appendix..
then they went to DEMC...
DEMC doctor said its not appendix..because her blood pressure is very low...and getting lower and lower..
maybe internal bleeding...they try to scan everything...they didn't see anything...
so..dorg nak bedah...but not enough blood bag..
and..they transfer my aunty to HTAR, Klang...
operation done in 4 hours...
but.............
she's in a very critical condition....
her blood has somekind of acid...which has seperate to the other organs of the body..
her kidney pun dah tak berfungsi...
jantung pun lemah...blood pressure still low..
tak boleh nak dialysis...sbb blood pressure sgt rendah...
her body was bloated...penuh air..
the doctor try their best to makesure she will get better..
senang cerita...dia tgh sgt kritikal...
nyawa dia sume kne support by machine2 yg sgt byk..and bernafas pon dgn oxygen tank...
sedih sgt....dia la aunty yg sgt baik dgn i...
woah..nak nanges... :'(
yg ade skrg tawakkal...and doa byk2...
hope she well get better soon...
don't leave us....!!!!!!!
we love u...ur kids love u...
please....



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p / s : ........*sigh
i'm waiting for him....

tuuut...

Rindu ema lah...hahaha...dah lame x jumpe die...

xde teman tido...haha...

xde geng nak sepak terajang...

xde geng nak gado...

rindu die...haha..budak kecoh tu...jgn mara ea ema..

yg pasti ema xde x best...

kak sara pulak busy dgn laki die..haha..abg aku jugak...

ema ema...

hari ni ramai nak dtg uma...uncle, aunty sume nak dtg..

kene wat kek horlicks...

and today jugak sleepover kat uma aisyah...yeay..! gossip...! ape lagi...hihi

ade babi teratur kat uma die..hihi...eehh..beratur..

makan lagi..

rasenye badan dah naik berkilo kilo nih...

woah...genduut..pendek pulak tuh..haha

nak wat cmne...

xde gamba raye la..

x syiok...

xpe lah..nanti nanti lah letak...weehhee..

ish..x saba nak habis SPM...!!!!

nak amik drum class...! wohooo...!

yeah babeh...!

shit..! next week sekolah...

*sigh

must give full attention and focus..then i'm free..!!!!!!!!!!

xpe..sekolah pun sekolah lah...

lepas ni x payah fikir psl sekolah tak lame lagi...

menyemak jeh...hahaha...

ok that's all for today... :)

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p / s : i don't what to say about him anymore...

i feel like he has forget everything about me...about us..

i feel empty...really empty...lonely tu x payah cakap lah..

i feel like he's just my secret admire...

where i can love him just by watching him from far...

being friends is great...

but...it's hard for me to let go of him...

everytime i'm with him, he always make me fall in love with him again and again..

and now.......i'm afraid to fall in love again...afraid....

i don't know why...

hmmm....

*sigh

precious memory... :D

hari ni sgt best...thanks to kak sara and kak ema...syg korg..!
korg sgt memahami...thanks for today..thanks for yesterday..thanks for everything...
*hug ketat2...hihi


well, today paper seni...not bad question die...nak kate susah, tak jugak...so so lah...
tapi yg tak best, kelas aku xde orang...!! wah..! hebat dorg...! dorg dah raye dulu...kalah cikgu skolah aku...
mentang2 dorg dah tak de paper today...
haih..yg dtg cume aku dgn arip je...so, kedatangan 5 akaun hanye 2/43 org shj hari ni...
haha..
well, x sempat aku nak wish selamat hari raya kat korg...huhu..


SELAMAT HARI RAYE KEPADA KAWAN2 KU.....!!!!!!!!!! MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN....!!!!


wish kat blog je la nampaknye...hehe..
jgn lupe dtg uma aku if aku wat openhouse...
:)


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p / s : thanks for spending your time with me these days... :)
i miss you bieca...so much...!
i'll be waiting for you...
i dah luahkan ape yg terbuku kat hati i kat u...
i harap you fikirkan...
i just wanna say that i'm sorry for everything....again...
eventhough it hurts about whatever you've done to me...but, its okay...
i have forgive you..
what past, is past...
whatever happens, my love to you will never fade...never ever...!

thanks for everything...
it was my precious moment in my life to be with you...
yesterday and today was the wonderful memory being with you...
and whatever happens between me and you is the best of the best thing to me...


i always love you...


SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN....
:)

sacrifies....!

FRUST....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ADDMATH SUSAH...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
D,:

nak nanges...susah gile addmath...
stress...nguuu...ayah mesti marah...
dah la ayah pro addmath..nguu..
i'm sorry daddy...


hari ni majok dgn mama....dia x nak belikan mercun dgn bunga api....
majok...!!
dah la raye tahun ni sume org cm balik kg...kak sara dgn ema pon balik kg...
dgn abg..nguu..raye this year sorg2 jeh...
bosan...thats why kena beli mercun dgn bunga api...at least meriah sikit..
boleh baling mercun kat uma orang...sume org xde...sume balik kg...kan best..
pastu abg lagi sorg pulak bini nak tgh sarat...
hmmm...yg bestnye dpt anak buah baru raye nih...
hiihihi...ok la tuh...



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p/s : the lesson that i've learnt from what's happening between us is sacrifies...
love is all about sacrifies...sacrifies includes everything...honesty, loyal, caring and more..
and sometimes, we have to let go the person that you love the most just to make her or him happy...
but dosen't mean that i wanna let go of him...
it's just i'm waiting for him...
until when..?
i don't know...like forever..?
maybe some of you guys said that i'm trully emotional or stupid...or whatever..
but we were different...
no one knows hows it feel...
and he should know that i had sacrifies everything for him...
i can't stop for loving him...unlesss....
the word ' i hate you and go away, i don't need you ' come out from his mouth...
then i will disappear...
never searching for his love again...


damn i miss him...!

precious moment...! :D

hari ni nak pegi beli kasut raya...! yeay..! :p
tak sabanye...nak pilih mcm2 kasut...supaye nampak tinggi daripada sume org time raye nanti... :D
smlm shopping baju raye...so, hari ni kasut la pulak...
nanti beg pulak, pastu, acsessories pulak, then barang dalam yg baru...hihihi...sumenye nak baru...
takde lah...mane yg mama bg beli, beli lah..bile lagi nak kebas duit mama...nanti da keje kene gune duit sendiri..
huhuuhu..
this year baju raye simple je...
ha'ah la...baju raye utk jalan x beli lagi...
ni kene mintak jap lagi...hihihi
nak beli jeans 1 dgn baju t-shirt cumel 1...cukup lah...
dah kekurangan jeans..hahah...sebelum beli mesti kene potong jeans tu dulu supaye tak labuh...alllaaaa...mlsnye...ni yg x suke...slalu spoil mood nak beli jeans baru...
tapi xpe...raye punye pasal..
kene beli jugak...heeee...



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p/s : thanks a lot to him...! :)
that moment was the precious moment in my life between me and him...
that wonderful moment, iwill never forget in my memories..ever..!
tidur i pun dah lena sikit...hihi
anyway, thanks again...
and..............i miss you soo damn much bieca...!

6 subject to go...

fuh...penat..tak cukup tido...
study punye pasal...
well, i'm glad i can answer the all the exam question... :)
6 subject to go...
focus focus focus...!



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p/s : he always make my heart beat faster everytime i saw him...
well, in my exam essay, i wrote a story about him...
but it's a sad story ending...it's just i wanna make the story become interesting...
i'm sorry..i hope the story will not become a real story...to me, it a sad story...
sorry...
i miss u