i'm back...!

wah..! lamenye x tulis blog...
rindu lah pulak...well...kinda busy buat lesen...
lesen L baru je klua...baru L kot...hahaha...nak tunggu 1 bulan lagi baru dpt P..
hmmm...cm lame jeh...my friend, hanan, went to UK...with her sister...
best kot..! hmm...rindu die...gue serba salah sbb x dpt jmpe die sblum die pegi UK..
sbb time tu amik lesen punye psl...soorrryyy hanan...! kesian die... :(
nnt aku dgn bon belikan ko kek pisang byk2...ko kan suke kek pisang...
sorry yea hanan...! ok...nxt story is..kelmarin my cousin tunang..
she's 23 years old..her name is amy farah...gosh..! she's damn beautiful...!
everything is perfect...hantaran die cantik...ade pelamin lg...kecik je pelamin nye yg bertemakan
warne light pink n putih...sgt cantik...everything is perfect...tunang die sempoi...name die Que..
i don't know his full name..igt name die pon sbb mcm name plakon malaysia tuh..ape bnde ntah name die...start with Q jugak..hahaha..sorry kak farah..nina x igt name tunang akak tuh..hehe
dorg mcm pinang dibelah 10...tinggi pon nk dekat same...hehehe..well...all i wanna say is congrats to both of u...! semoga b'kekalan sampai bile2.... :) sayang kak farah...!






p/s : about him...hmm..how do you feel when the person that u love the most treat u like shit...?
kdg2 nmpk mcm die syg lg...n kdg2 x....what's up with that...? ape mslh kau?
kenape kau jd mcm ni? asl kau mcm dah berubah...? what's going on? can u xplain it to me?
stop treating me like i'm an idiot..

4 a.m

study study study...pkul 4 pg cmni x tido lagi...hehehe...
baru lepas study SEJARAH..
waahhh..! pening...byk gile kne hafal....
well...sebelum tido ni marilah kite bace doa tido...
ape doa tido ea??
lupelahh...
xpe lah...
BISMILLAH pun ckup la... :)
bye!



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p / s : well....i'm ok right now....
thanks to you...
as long as u are really sorry about u have done to me...
is ok..
entah la...tak tau nape la aku syg sgt kat mamat nih....
pelik kan??
org lain sume suro aku move on...
tp...hakikatnye..gue x bole lupekan die sikit pon...
hmmm....
<3 !

Lamenye dah tak berblogging...
malas lah...nak SPM la kononye...
huhu...
tak sabarnye nak habis SPM...!
HEAVEN gile nanti...
plan cm nak g cuti dengan kawan kawan...
g genting ke...tak pun langkawi..
dah tanye ayah...die cm bagi...
ade gak plan cm nak ikut hanan g UK...tgk kakak die kat sane..
but cm susah je nak dpt green light dari mama..
tp yg pasti nak pegi Saudi Arabia...
ayah kate ' that's good idea! '
sbb my aunty pun ade duduk sane...
INSAF sikit g sane...hahaha
insyaallah ok kot...
waah..! tak sabarnye..!
ngeeee...
JOM jalan jalan..! :)
angan angan je lebih..hahaha
result nanti ntah mcm mane la kan...
tp yg pasti usaha...!
Doa.
Usaha.
Istiqamah.
Tawakkal.




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p / s : i hate the way u treat me right now...
to me...that's to harsh...
nak ckp terase..?
sgt terase..!
baling kasut hampir kene muke i??
bg ucapan ' bile nak kurus? '
i tau i ni GEMOK cm baboon...
kot ye nak bahan i pun...tak payah la smpi nak malukan aku mcmtu skali...
heh.
ape motif u buat sume tu??
suke kan?
are u happy and satisfied now????
mane respect u???
thank u about what u have done to me...i really appreciate that...
if stuff like these happens again..
i have to think more than twice to accept u in my life if there is second chance..
RESPECT people dude...!

[ i'm soo pleased ] =D

the way you smile at me,
the way you look me into my eyes,
always make me crazy about you.

one piece of pure heart

always make my heart beat faster everytime I saw you

since the day you left,
my heart started to ache,
the heart ache that i feel,
it is because my love for you is real,
many sleepless night,
because you were always there at my sight,
I tried to close my eyes,
but I always catch your imaginary smiles,
days and months had pass,
i thought i can forget you at last,
because its you I keep on waited.

i loved you then,
and I love you still,
I adore you now,
and i always will.




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p / s : about him?? bacelah yg sudah tertera di atas... :)

Ya..Good Girls Always Gone Bad..

sayang korang...!!!

nah...makan kaki aku.. ( sedap...rase lemak2..nak sikit? )


^ 2 org minah ni sangat menggelikan...^

model import dari negara jiran.. ;D

inilah kami yg sebenar...

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p/s : still thinking about him... :)

Hospital....hospital....

Hospital...i went to hospital these two days...tgk my aunty...
the horror part of the hospital is the EMERGANCY ROOM...
where i can see blood is everywhere...and people die in there..
urgh...takuttt...!
my aunty sakit...actually we don't expect that she had a serious infection...or anykind of disease..
dia just sakit perut...
then...last sunday, dia tak lalu makan..mulut banyak ulser...
and dia ckp tak sedap perut...which is ade something wrong dgn perut dia...
then...mlm ahad tu dia larat...esok pulak dia mengadu sakit...
dia seorang yg sgt susah utk sakit...and susah nak ckp sakit..
then her husband took her to the clinic, to see a doctor...
the doctor said maybe appendix..
then they went to DEMC...
DEMC doctor said its not appendix..because her blood pressure is very low...and getting lower and lower..
maybe internal bleeding...they try to scan everything...they didn't see anything...
so..dorg nak bedah...but not enough blood bag..
and..they transfer my aunty to HTAR, Klang...
operation done in 4 hours...
but.............
she's in a very critical condition....
her blood has somekind of acid...which has seperate to the other organs of the body..
her kidney pun dah tak berfungsi...
jantung pun lemah...blood pressure still low..
tak boleh nak dialysis...sbb blood pressure sgt rendah...
her body was bloated...penuh air..
the doctor try their best to makesure she will get better..
senang cerita...dia tgh sgt kritikal...
nyawa dia sume kne support by machine2 yg sgt byk..and bernafas pon dgn oxygen tank...
sedih sgt....dia la aunty yg sgt baik dgn i...
woah..nak nanges... :'(
yg ade skrg tawakkal...and doa byk2...
hope she well get better soon...
don't leave us....!!!!!!!
we love u...ur kids love u...
please....



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p / s : ........*sigh
i'm waiting for him....

tuuut...

Rindu ema lah...hahaha...dah lame x jumpe die...

xde teman tido...haha...

xde geng nak sepak terajang...

xde geng nak gado...

rindu die...haha..budak kecoh tu...jgn mara ea ema..

yg pasti ema xde x best...

kak sara pulak busy dgn laki die..haha..abg aku jugak...

ema ema...

hari ni ramai nak dtg uma...uncle, aunty sume nak dtg..

kene wat kek horlicks...

and today jugak sleepover kat uma aisyah...yeay..! gossip...! ape lagi...hihi

ade babi teratur kat uma die..hihi...eehh..beratur..

makan lagi..

rasenye badan dah naik berkilo kilo nih...

woah...genduut..pendek pulak tuh..haha

nak wat cmne...

xde gamba raye la..

x syiok...

xpe lah..nanti nanti lah letak...weehhee..

ish..x saba nak habis SPM...!!!!

nak amik drum class...! wohooo...!

yeah babeh...!

shit..! next week sekolah...

*sigh

must give full attention and focus..then i'm free..!!!!!!!!!!

xpe..sekolah pun sekolah lah...

lepas ni x payah fikir psl sekolah tak lame lagi...

menyemak jeh...hahaha...

ok that's all for today... :)

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p / s : i don't what to say about him anymore...

i feel like he has forget everything about me...about us..

i feel empty...really empty...lonely tu x payah cakap lah..

i feel like he's just my secret admire...

where i can love him just by watching him from far...

being friends is great...

but...it's hard for me to let go of him...

everytime i'm with him, he always make me fall in love with him again and again..

and now.......i'm afraid to fall in love again...afraid....

i don't know why...

hmmm....

*sigh

precious memory... :D

hari ni sgt best...thanks to kak sara and kak ema...syg korg..!
korg sgt memahami...thanks for today..thanks for yesterday..thanks for everything...
*hug ketat2...hihi


well, today paper seni...not bad question die...nak kate susah, tak jugak...so so lah...
tapi yg tak best, kelas aku xde orang...!! wah..! hebat dorg...! dorg dah raye dulu...kalah cikgu skolah aku...
mentang2 dorg dah tak de paper today...
haih..yg dtg cume aku dgn arip je...so, kedatangan 5 akaun hanye 2/43 org shj hari ni...
haha..
well, x sempat aku nak wish selamat hari raya kat korg...huhu..


SELAMAT HARI RAYE KEPADA KAWAN2 KU.....!!!!!!!!!! MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN....!!!!


wish kat blog je la nampaknye...hehe..
jgn lupe dtg uma aku if aku wat openhouse...
:)


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p / s : thanks for spending your time with me these days... :)
i miss you bieca...so much...!
i'll be waiting for you...
i dah luahkan ape yg terbuku kat hati i kat u...
i harap you fikirkan...
i just wanna say that i'm sorry for everything....again...
eventhough it hurts about whatever you've done to me...but, its okay...
i have forgive you..
what past, is past...
whatever happens, my love to you will never fade...never ever...!

thanks for everything...
it was my precious moment in my life to be with you...
yesterday and today was the wonderful memory being with you...
and whatever happens between me and you is the best of the best thing to me...


i always love you...


SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN....
:)

sacrifies....!

FRUST....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ADDMATH SUSAH...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
D,:

nak nanges...susah gile addmath...
stress...nguuu...ayah mesti marah...
dah la ayah pro addmath..nguu..
i'm sorry daddy...


hari ni majok dgn mama....dia x nak belikan mercun dgn bunga api....
majok...!!
dah la raye tahun ni sume org cm balik kg...kak sara dgn ema pon balik kg...
dgn abg..nguu..raye this year sorg2 jeh...
bosan...thats why kena beli mercun dgn bunga api...at least meriah sikit..
boleh baling mercun kat uma orang...sume org xde...sume balik kg...kan best..
pastu abg lagi sorg pulak bini nak tgh sarat...
hmmm...yg bestnye dpt anak buah baru raye nih...
hiihihi...ok la tuh...



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p/s : the lesson that i've learnt from what's happening between us is sacrifies...
love is all about sacrifies...sacrifies includes everything...honesty, loyal, caring and more..
and sometimes, we have to let go the person that you love the most just to make her or him happy...
but dosen't mean that i wanna let go of him...
it's just i'm waiting for him...
until when..?
i don't know...like forever..?
maybe some of you guys said that i'm trully emotional or stupid...or whatever..
but we were different...
no one knows hows it feel...
and he should know that i had sacrifies everything for him...
i can't stop for loving him...unlesss....
the word ' i hate you and go away, i don't need you ' come out from his mouth...
then i will disappear...
never searching for his love again...


damn i miss him...!

precious moment...! :D

hari ni nak pegi beli kasut raya...! yeay..! :p
tak sabanye...nak pilih mcm2 kasut...supaye nampak tinggi daripada sume org time raye nanti... :D
smlm shopping baju raye...so, hari ni kasut la pulak...
nanti beg pulak, pastu, acsessories pulak, then barang dalam yg baru...hihihi...sumenye nak baru...
takde lah...mane yg mama bg beli, beli lah..bile lagi nak kebas duit mama...nanti da keje kene gune duit sendiri..
huhuuhu..
this year baju raye simple je...
ha'ah la...baju raye utk jalan x beli lagi...
ni kene mintak jap lagi...hihihi
nak beli jeans 1 dgn baju t-shirt cumel 1...cukup lah...
dah kekurangan jeans..hahah...sebelum beli mesti kene potong jeans tu dulu supaye tak labuh...alllaaaa...mlsnye...ni yg x suke...slalu spoil mood nak beli jeans baru...
tapi xpe...raye punye pasal..
kene beli jugak...heeee...



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p/s : thanks a lot to him...! :)
that moment was the precious moment in my life between me and him...
that wonderful moment, iwill never forget in my memories..ever..!
tidur i pun dah lena sikit...hihi
anyway, thanks again...
and..............i miss you soo damn much bieca...!

6 subject to go...

fuh...penat..tak cukup tido...
study punye pasal...
well, i'm glad i can answer the all the exam question... :)
6 subject to go...
focus focus focus...!



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p/s : he always make my heart beat faster everytime i saw him...
well, in my exam essay, i wrote a story about him...
but it's a sad story ending...it's just i wanna make the story become interesting...
i'm sorry..i hope the story will not become a real story...to me, it a sad story...
sorry...
i miss u

i adore u....!!! damn..!

God...! i'm dying to get this....
one day i will have it...
damn cool...!


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p/s : damn..! i miss him..( sigh )

Water, Earth, Fire and Air...

Fire.....Aries, Leo, and Sagittarius

Earth.....Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn

Air.....Gemini, Libra, Aquarius

Water....Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces

When these elements are translated as personality traits or temperament, they become important features of the delineation. For the few who have a balance in elements, the concepts of elements should be considered balanced. That is they tend to reflect common sense (earth), action orientation (fire), thinking and communication skills (air), and the ability to feel and intuitively know (water) in reasonable proportion and don't rely overly on any of these traits at the expense of another.

mine is the BLUE one ... :)

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p/s : hell..why this is happening to me? ( sigh )

Something new.....read read read...

Life...


- Sit quietly, doing nothing, spring comes, and the grass grows by itself.


- Some desire is necessary to keep life in motion.


- Someone may have stolen your dream when it was young and fresh and you were innocent. Anger is natural. Grief is appropriate. Healing is mandatory. Restoration is possible.


- Strength lies in differences, not in similarities.


- Strong lives are motivated by dynamic purposes.


- Success demands singleness of purpose.


- Success is to be measured not so much by the position that one has reached in life as by the obstacles which he has overcome.





Motivation..


- Motivation is a fire from within. If someone else tries to light that fire under you, chances are it will burn very briefly.


- Motivation is like food for the brain. You cannot get enough in one sitting. It needs continual and regular top up's.




Friends..


- When we hurt each other we should write it down in the sand, so the winds of forgiveness can make it go away for good. When we help each other we should chisel it in stone, lest we never forget the love of a friend.


- When you choose your friends, don't be short-changed by choosing personality over character.


- When you judge another, you do not define them, you define yourself.


- Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude.


- Without friends, no one would want to live, even if he had all other goods.


- You can make more friends in two months by becoming interested in other people than you can in two years by trying to get other people interested in you.



Best Friend..


- A friend is someone who lets you have total freedom to be yourself.


- A true friend is one who overlooks your failures and tolerates your success.


- In the adversity of our best friends we often find something that is not exactly displeasing


- My best friend is the one who brings out the best in me.


- I have learned that to have a good friend is the purest of all God's gifts, for it is a love that has no exchange of payment.





LOVE


- There's nothing in this world so sweet as love. And next to love the sweetest thing is hate.


- Love looks through a telescope; envy, through a microscope.


- Love is much like a wild rose, beautiful and calm, but willing to draw blood in its defense.


- Hate leaves ugly scars; love leaves beautiful ones.


- Hatred ever kills, love never dies. Such is the vast difference between the two. What is obtained by love is retained for all time. What is obtained by hatred proves a burden in reality for it increases hatred.


- Bitterness imprisons life; love releases it. Bitterness paralyzes life; love empowers it. Bitterness sours life; love sweetens it. Bitterness sickens life; love heals it. Bitterness blinds life; love anoints its eyes.


- The opposite of love is not hate; it's indifference.


- Love lights more fire than hate extinguishes.


- Love is a given, hatred is acquired.


- Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it. Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it. Hatred darkens life; love illumines it.


- Love: a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker.


- Love is as strict as acting. If you want to love somebody, stand there and do it. If you don't, don't. There are no other choices.


- The quarrels of lovers are like summer storms. Everything is more beautiful when they have passed.


- Love is an exploding cigar we willingly smoke.


- What the heart has once owned and had, it shall never lose.


- A person can be in love with someone forever till the end of time. But if that person doesn't tell or show the feelings of love, it will be just another person living in a dream, lost of true love.


- Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.


- You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh, but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry.


- To live in this world you must be able to do three things: to love what is mortal; to hold it against your bones knowing your own life depends on it; and, when the time comes to let it go, to let it go.


- Some people come into our lives, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never the same.




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p/s : miss him... :(

trial lagi 6 hari...!!!!

stresssss....
kene blaja....MALAS tetap menguasai...
mama demam...kene bagi makan ubat...kene suap makan...kene lap badan mama...
sian mama...
well...time kita demam dia jaga kita baik2...
it's time utk kita balas balik apa yang mama dah buat kat kita...
sayang mama...!!!!!




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p/s : can't stop loving him..

that's it...!

that's it..! i just wanna say i'm so sorry to him...
cukup sume yg dah jadi...
dah x larat nak tanggung...
xnak libatkan orang lain...
xnak org lain sakit hati sbbkn dulu2...
sendiri sakit hati xpe...jgn orang lain sakit hati...
sekarang ni, biarlah dia dgn hidup dia...
i have decided that i don't wanna disturb him anymore....
if she will make him happy, i have to let go of him...
hope he will be happy...
well, semoga berbahagia...




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true friends always stick together....

these are the precious moments between us....walaupun dah lama....no one can separate us....
SAYANG KORANG GILE BABI OUH......!!!!!!!!!!! MUAH MUAH MUAH.....








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p/s : i miss him....sigh....but i have to let go of him...its a must....he changed a lot...i feel like i don't know
him anymore....

Focus.....

lately ni bosan gile....
penat....penat pun kene stay FOCUS....
that is a my responsibility...wajibulghunnah...
i don't want to go home this week....
i'm not in the mood with my mum....
she always think negative about me...
i'm soooo upset with her....!!!
shussshhh....
really upset....!!!!
i feel like i wanna cry all the time...
i want somebody to understand me.... :(


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p/s : ouh God...!!! i miss him....

humph....

ouh my God....
boringnya hari ni....
semalam ulang dua kali tengok movie freaky friday...
best jugak...tido pukul tiga pagi...
hahaha....
bangun je terus tuition....math...
best...belajar tajuk matrices...
pening jugak...then lama2 okay....
wheee....
memang sekarang dia jarang nak reply msg yang i bagi.....
well...nampak sangat dah happy....
huhuhu....
maybe busy dengan dunia baru dia kot....
memang sedih kot...
harap dia okay...sentiasa di bawah perlindungan yang Maha Esa.....



well.....that's for today....humph...



p/s : i miss him...

take me away....

Yeah,Yeah

Get up, Get out
Move on, move on, there's no doubt
I'm all wrong, you're right
It's all the same with you
I'm too thin, I'm too fat
You ask why
So why
So why
So why

On and on
And on and on
On and on
And on and on

Chorus
Don't want to grow up
I want to get out
Hey, take me away
I want to shout out
Take me away
Away
Away
Away
Away


Round and round here we go again
Same old story, same old end
Turn my head
And turn back again
Same old stuff never ends
Do this, do that
Can't deal can't deal with that
I tune in, tune out
I've heard it all before
Hello, goodbye
Never asking me why
Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye

On and on
And on and on
On and on
And on and on

Chorus
Don't want to grow up
I want to get out
Hey, take me away
I want to shout out
Take me away
Away
Away
Away
Away

(Guitar solo)

Chorus x2

Round and round here we go again
Same old story, same old end
Turn my head
And turn back again
Same old stuff never ends





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p/s : i miss him...

Woah...

boringnye...
ape nak buat hari nih...
kejap lagi tuition...
study...SPM is coming...
trial is coming...
lagi berapa bulan je nak habis sekolah...
no more bangun pagi gosok baju...
no more basuh kasut sekolah...
no more susun buku sekolah...
wuhuu...sayangnya...!
too much wonderful memory at school...
i wonder what will happen after my school time is over...
great things or bad things....
i hope i will become a great person...with full of knowledge....
i wanna be a great psychologist....and a great interior designer...
hope my dreams come true...
all i need is strength to be a great and amazing person...where people respect me...
penat memang penat...
but that's the reality....



p/s : i miss him....!!

DOES...

he is everything to me....
but does he know??
does he appreciate me???
he changed a lot...
dekat sekolah lain...luar sekolah lain...
bila la dia nak berubah JADI BAIK...he was a different person that i knew when the first time our love began...
well...people changed...i also admit that i have changed a lot when he came into my life...
dia x tau betapa besar peranan dia dlm hidup i...
derita hati x terkata...betul lah kata orang ' KALAU KITA MENCINTAI SESEORANG, SEBELAH KAKI KITA KAT LUBUK DERITA... '
manusia memang tak pernah bersyukur dan tak puas dengan apa yang telah di kurniakan oleh Tuhan...
dia patut tahu semua tu...dia patut tau " CUMA YANG MELUKAKAN BOLEH MENGUBATI "



does he know that he give me the INSPIRATION to STUDY and get a GOOD MARKS in exam...???
does he know that once he made a mistakes, it effects on my study???
its really hard for me to let go of him...
does he know what LOVE is???
does he know what APPRECIATE is??
does he know what's the meaning of TRUE LOVE is??
does he know what SACRIFICE is??
does he know ANYTHING about me??
does he remember WHO AM I to him??
does he try to BECOME A BETTER PERSON after he done the mistakes in the past??
does he know that i always support him...???
does he know that i'm DYING to come over the PNSB training center to watch him training...??
apa yang dia tau???
SERONOK ALL THE TIME.....
i HATE the words EX....
i HATE it sooo damn much....!!!!!!!!!!!!



kesimpulannya...LELAKI MEMANG X PERNAH CUKUP DENGAN SATU.....


well i have forgive him about what happened in the past...
i still love him with all my heart until forever....
i hope he know that....


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waaahhh...hari ni my mum suap i makan tengahari...sedapnyaaa....
hehehe....
well...i hope my mum understands me....
if once she understands me, no wonder i will become a BETTER PERSON than now...






p/s : i miss him....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( sigh )

Jika Kau Kekasih

Lirik lagu linda af - Jika kau kekasih

Tidak kau terasa beban yang aku pikul
Menyeksa jiwaku kekasih
Kenapa kau tak pernah merasakan
Dan jika kau kekasih yang menyayangi aku
Harus kau mengerti hatiku
Itu hanya apa yang ku impikan
Bilakah kau akan mengerti

(Korus)
Kata hati merayu aku pergi
Meninggalkan dirimu tapi ku tak terdaya
Mengapa kasih, harus ku alami?
Setelah aku korban segala-galanya
Sanggupku harungi hidup bersama dirimu
Meninggalkan semua yang aku cintai

Jika kau kekasih senangkanlah hidupku
Jangan biar aku begini
Hidupku dalam kerunsingan kasih
Jika kau kekasih yang menyayangi aku
Harus kau mengerti hatiku
Itu hanya apa yang ku impikan
Bilakah kau akan mengerti

(Korus)
Kata hati merayu aku pergi
Meninggalkan dirimu tapi ku tak terdaya
Mengapa kasih, harus ku alami?
Setelah aku korban segala-galanya
Sanggupku harungi hidup bersama dirimu
Meninggalkan semua yang aku cintai

Bilakah kau akan mengerti

(Korus)
Kata hati merayu aku pergi
Meninggalkan dirimu tapi ku tak terdaya
Mengapa kasih, harus ku alami?
Setelah aku korban segala-galanya
Sanggupku harungi hidup bersama dirimu
Meninggalkan semua yang aku cintai
Kasih…

p/s : i miss him...!!! does he know??? (sigh)

memories, support and thanks...

it is supposed to be our anniversary yesterday...22nd...
we were supposed to be together until now...2 years and 4 months...



my life is dull...
i might have everything that i want....
but, my life is not like other teenagers...
i need somebody to understands me....
i want my mother understands me...
no pressure...support everything...



well..thanks to my friends today...thank you sbb jadi pendengar yang setia...
syg korg...!


p/s : i miss him...!!!!

Tuhan...!

life is not easy...
time nak SPM ni mmg byk dugaan yg dtg...
sometimes that makes me wanna give up on everything...
penat...sedih...
i need somebody....
i need somebody...
i try to forget what happened in the past...but i've forgive him for what he have done to me...
eventhough it really hurts...
hurts a lot...but its okay...
honest is important in every relationship...
i try my best....but when someone does not appreciate what i have done, that hurts a lot...
maybe it is my fault that he had changed...
but no matter what, i still love him so much...
cinta tu sgt indah....
bahagia tak terkata...peritnya juga tak terkata...kecewa pun tak terkata...
hati mmg penat...i miss him soo much...
maybe sekarang dia lebih happy berbanding dulu...
but me??? SUFFER all the time....
mcm mane nak atasi benda ni....
the key is DOA....
penat, kecewa, sedih, lonely kita boleh share dgn Tuhan...
Tuhan sentiasa dgn kita...
biarlah masa tentukan semua...
tapi, apa yang terbuku kat hati ni Tuhan je tau...
harap benda ni tak berlaku lagi akan datang...
hati dan perasaan susah utk kita baca....
tak dendam...
tapi pasrah apa yang terjadi....
yang ada hanya sayang....
i hope that he know that i love him soo much until the end of time...
and hope that he will give me one more chance...i promise to be a better person...
but only if he give me one more chance...
if not....i have to surrender...and stay away from him..
setakat tengok dari jauh pun ok la...
tapi sekarang...ni je yg mampu bagi kat dia...
" you're not alone...i am here with you...though we're far away...i am here to stay...for you're not alone...though we're far apart...you always in my heart...you're not alone...."
hati dia...tak tahu lah...

family...
its unacceptable about what happened...heh...
susah nak cakap...
cukup la apa yg dah jadi...harap ada hikmah semua ni...Tuhan yang tentukan semua...
Doa, Usaha, Tawakkal...


that's all for today...


p/s : i miss him sooo damn much...

Karma.. =(

Weren't you the one that said, that you don't want me anymore.
And how you need your space, and give the keys back to your door.
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me.
But still you said that love was gone, and that I had to leave.
Now you, talkin bout a family
Now you, sayin I complete your dream
Now you, sayin I'm your everything
You confusin me
What you say to me
Don't play with me
Don't play with me.
Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back
I remember when
I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you
Til 3 o'clock in the morn
And when you came home, you'd always have some sorry excuse.
And explainin to me, like I'm just some kinda fool
I sacrifice the things I want to and do things for you
But when it's time to do for me, you never come through
Now you, wanna be a bond of me (eyyy)
Now you, have so much to say to me (heyy)
Now you, wanna make time for me
What you do to me.
You confusin me
Don't play with me
Don't play with me.
Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back
I remember when
I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you
Til 3 o'clock in the morn
Night after night
Knowin sumthing goin on
Wasn't home befo me
You was,you was gone
Lord knows it wasn't easy, but believe me.
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceived me.
And never do wha u was supposed to do
No need to hose me fool, cause I'm ova you
Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Gotta stop tryin, to come back to me
What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
It's called Karma baby.
And it goes around.
What goes around, comes around,
What goes up, must comes down,
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me



p/s : i always miss him..and always love him..

A story sadder than sadness..

trauma...
the person that i only love in my heart, betrayed me...
i sacrifies everything for him...everything...
my bestfriend saw him with another girl holding hands at sunway pyramid last holiday...
he admit it to me..thank God he tell me the truth and explain to me..die mengaku yg curang..
thanks to his sister also...because she make me realize that don't trust a guy that u love too much...
sbb dgn kepercayaan tu la dtg kekecewaan yg t'amat sgt...
x penah seumur hidup i kecewa n sedih mcm ni..
mayb its my fault...susah dpt jumpe dia...t'lalu kongkong hdp dia...
dugaan ni t'lalu berat...tapi Tuhan tu Maha Adil...what goes around, comes around...
i xde niat utk membenci dia..he was the person that i love in my life...
until now i love him..
but now, i need time to think...and i give only chance to win my heart again...
my trust to him would never the same as before which is i trust him soo much...
then last2 things happened like this...
and i really hope the best for our love and our relationship..
its a long story...
hanya Tuhan yg dapat menentukan..kita hanya merancang...well, that's for today...





p/s : i need him...miss him too much...

Exhausted...!

hello everybody..
today i'm really exhausted...! ouh God...
because i woke up at 3 o'clock in the morning and went to masjid negeri for qiamullail..
smlm pun pegi masjid yg sama jugak...dgr ceramah forum perdana yg bertajuk ' Akhlak Membentuk Peribadi Mukmin '...something like that la..
i can't remember the title..huhu..sebelum pegi tu me and my sister sempat melaram..haha..


she's my new sister in-law...and i love her..i'm proud of her and i'm proud being her sister...syg kak sara..! welcome to our family...=)


i arrived home at 1 o'clock in the morning...balik je dari masjid, singgah mcd jap.everyone is starving...makin mlm, makin ramai student lpk...everyone like staring at us..because we were wearing jubah...my dad, my mum, my sister, and me...haha..i said to my sister..' mesti dorg fikir like ape ke hal ktorg pkai baju jubah mlm2 bute pegi mcd..' ktorg gelak2...my sister ckp lek ar...rock pe..haha...well, suke hati la nak pakai baju ape pun kan..hehe..then balik..pastu tido bape jam je..pkul 3 pegi masjid balik...qiamullail tu mmg best..membuat kita sedar dan memuhasabah diri..malah menginsafi segala dosa yg telah kita lakukan..suasana time tu sgt sayu...


seriously, tok imam tu mmg buat ktorg nanges gile2..he is damn good..ramai jugak org dtg..sume yg dtg tu nanges..ktorg wat solat hajat, solat tasbih, solat taubat..mmg best la...rugi sape x join..hihi..ktorg abis dlm pukul 8 pagi...i'm very sleepy that time..then sampai rumah terus tido sampai pukul 12 tghri kot..haha...my mum mumbling all the time...she won't stop until i woke up...thats my mum...biase la tuh...huhu..hari ni tak pegi mane2 pun...gile bosan...
esok dah sekolah...malasnye...tgh syok cuti...hihi...well, i know my responsibilities...lepas ni nak iron baju sekolah...susun buku...homework tak siap..
mati lah...hahaha....lepas ni mesti busy start sekolah nih...spm kan...wow...struggle struggle struggle...well that's for today...daa...=)



p/s : i miss him...

hello readers..! =)

at last...i finally create my own blog...~phew
thank god...i've a lot of things to write..but not in the mood..
i've got a lot of work to do...and my 2nd brother is getting married...
soo busy...byk keje tapi sempat create blog tuh..hihi...chill la...
got to go..very busy..daa..

p/s : i miss him...