Focus.....

lately ni bosan gile....
penat....penat pun kene stay FOCUS....
that is a my responsibility...wajibulghunnah...
i don't want to go home this week....
i'm not in the mood with my mum....
she always think negative about me...
i'm soooo upset with her....!!!
shussshhh....
really upset....!!!!
i feel like i wanna cry all the time...
i want somebody to understand me.... :(


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p/s : ouh God...!!! i miss him....

humph....

ouh my God....
boringnya hari ni....
semalam ulang dua kali tengok movie freaky friday...
best jugak...tido pukul tiga pagi...
hahaha....
bangun je terus tuition....math...
best...belajar tajuk matrices...
pening jugak...then lama2 okay....
wheee....
memang sekarang dia jarang nak reply msg yang i bagi.....
well...nampak sangat dah happy....
huhuhu....
maybe busy dengan dunia baru dia kot....
memang sedih kot...
harap dia okay...sentiasa di bawah perlindungan yang Maha Esa.....



well.....that's for today....humph...



p/s : i miss him...

take me away....

Yeah,Yeah

Get up, Get out
Move on, move on, there's no doubt
I'm all wrong, you're right
It's all the same with you
I'm too thin, I'm too fat
You ask why
So why
So why
So why

On and on
And on and on
On and on
And on and on

Chorus
Don't want to grow up
I want to get out
Hey, take me away
I want to shout out
Take me away
Away
Away
Away
Away


Round and round here we go again
Same old story, same old end
Turn my head
And turn back again
Same old stuff never ends
Do this, do that
Can't deal can't deal with that
I tune in, tune out
I've heard it all before
Hello, goodbye
Never asking me why
Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye

On and on
And on and on
On and on
And on and on

Chorus
Don't want to grow up
I want to get out
Hey, take me away
I want to shout out
Take me away
Away
Away
Away
Away

(Guitar solo)

Chorus x2

Round and round here we go again
Same old story, same old end
Turn my head
And turn back again
Same old stuff never ends





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p/s : i miss him...

Woah...

boringnye...
ape nak buat hari nih...
kejap lagi tuition...
study...SPM is coming...
trial is coming...
lagi berapa bulan je nak habis sekolah...
no more bangun pagi gosok baju...
no more basuh kasut sekolah...
no more susun buku sekolah...
wuhuu...sayangnya...!
too much wonderful memory at school...
i wonder what will happen after my school time is over...
great things or bad things....
i hope i will become a great person...with full of knowledge....
i wanna be a great psychologist....and a great interior designer...
hope my dreams come true...
all i need is strength to be a great and amazing person...where people respect me...
penat memang penat...
but that's the reality....



p/s : i miss him....!!

DOES...

he is everything to me....
but does he know??
does he appreciate me???
he changed a lot...
dekat sekolah lain...luar sekolah lain...
bila la dia nak berubah JADI BAIK...he was a different person that i knew when the first time our love began...
well...people changed...i also admit that i have changed a lot when he came into my life...
dia x tau betapa besar peranan dia dlm hidup i...
derita hati x terkata...betul lah kata orang ' KALAU KITA MENCINTAI SESEORANG, SEBELAH KAKI KITA KAT LUBUK DERITA... '
manusia memang tak pernah bersyukur dan tak puas dengan apa yang telah di kurniakan oleh Tuhan...
dia patut tahu semua tu...dia patut tau " CUMA YANG MELUKAKAN BOLEH MENGUBATI "



does he know that he give me the INSPIRATION to STUDY and get a GOOD MARKS in exam...???
does he know that once he made a mistakes, it effects on my study???
its really hard for me to let go of him...
does he know what LOVE is???
does he know what APPRECIATE is??
does he know what's the meaning of TRUE LOVE is??
does he know what SACRIFICE is??
does he know ANYTHING about me??
does he remember WHO AM I to him??
does he try to BECOME A BETTER PERSON after he done the mistakes in the past??
does he know that i always support him...???
does he know that i'm DYING to come over the PNSB training center to watch him training...??
apa yang dia tau???
SERONOK ALL THE TIME.....
i HATE the words EX....
i HATE it sooo damn much....!!!!!!!!!!!!



kesimpulannya...LELAKI MEMANG X PERNAH CUKUP DENGAN SATU.....


well i have forgive him about what happened in the past...
i still love him with all my heart until forever....
i hope he know that....


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waaahhh...hari ni my mum suap i makan tengahari...sedapnyaaa....
hehehe....
well...i hope my mum understands me....
if once she understands me, no wonder i will become a BETTER PERSON than now...






p/s : i miss him....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( sigh )

Jika Kau Kekasih

Lirik lagu linda af - Jika kau kekasih

Tidak kau terasa beban yang aku pikul
Menyeksa jiwaku kekasih
Kenapa kau tak pernah merasakan
Dan jika kau kekasih yang menyayangi aku
Harus kau mengerti hatiku
Itu hanya apa yang ku impikan
Bilakah kau akan mengerti

(Korus)
Kata hati merayu aku pergi
Meninggalkan dirimu tapi ku tak terdaya
Mengapa kasih, harus ku alami?
Setelah aku korban segala-galanya
Sanggupku harungi hidup bersama dirimu
Meninggalkan semua yang aku cintai

Jika kau kekasih senangkanlah hidupku
Jangan biar aku begini
Hidupku dalam kerunsingan kasih
Jika kau kekasih yang menyayangi aku
Harus kau mengerti hatiku
Itu hanya apa yang ku impikan
Bilakah kau akan mengerti

(Korus)
Kata hati merayu aku pergi
Meninggalkan dirimu tapi ku tak terdaya
Mengapa kasih, harus ku alami?
Setelah aku korban segala-galanya
Sanggupku harungi hidup bersama dirimu
Meninggalkan semua yang aku cintai

Bilakah kau akan mengerti

(Korus)
Kata hati merayu aku pergi
Meninggalkan dirimu tapi ku tak terdaya
Mengapa kasih, harus ku alami?
Setelah aku korban segala-galanya
Sanggupku harungi hidup bersama dirimu
Meninggalkan semua yang aku cintai
Kasih…

p/s : i miss him...!!! does he know??? (sigh)

memories, support and thanks...

it is supposed to be our anniversary yesterday...22nd...
we were supposed to be together until now...2 years and 4 months...



my life is dull...
i might have everything that i want....
but, my life is not like other teenagers...
i need somebody to understands me....
i want my mother understands me...
no pressure...support everything...



well..thanks to my friends today...thank you sbb jadi pendengar yang setia...
syg korg...!


p/s : i miss him...!!!!

Tuhan...!

life is not easy...
time nak SPM ni mmg byk dugaan yg dtg...
sometimes that makes me wanna give up on everything...
penat...sedih...
i need somebody....
i need somebody...
i try to forget what happened in the past...but i've forgive him for what he have done to me...
eventhough it really hurts...
hurts a lot...but its okay...
honest is important in every relationship...
i try my best....but when someone does not appreciate what i have done, that hurts a lot...
maybe it is my fault that he had changed...
but no matter what, i still love him so much...
cinta tu sgt indah....
bahagia tak terkata...peritnya juga tak terkata...kecewa pun tak terkata...
hati mmg penat...i miss him soo much...
maybe sekarang dia lebih happy berbanding dulu...
but me??? SUFFER all the time....
mcm mane nak atasi benda ni....
the key is DOA....
penat, kecewa, sedih, lonely kita boleh share dgn Tuhan...
Tuhan sentiasa dgn kita...
biarlah masa tentukan semua...
tapi, apa yang terbuku kat hati ni Tuhan je tau...
harap benda ni tak berlaku lagi akan datang...
hati dan perasaan susah utk kita baca....
tak dendam...
tapi pasrah apa yang terjadi....
yang ada hanya sayang....
i hope that he know that i love him soo much until the end of time...
and hope that he will give me one more chance...i promise to be a better person...
but only if he give me one more chance...
if not....i have to surrender...and stay away from him..
setakat tengok dari jauh pun ok la...
tapi sekarang...ni je yg mampu bagi kat dia...
" you're not alone...i am here with you...though we're far away...i am here to stay...for you're not alone...though we're far apart...you always in my heart...you're not alone...."
hati dia...tak tahu lah...

family...
its unacceptable about what happened...heh...
susah nak cakap...
cukup la apa yg dah jadi...harap ada hikmah semua ni...Tuhan yang tentukan semua...
Doa, Usaha, Tawakkal...


that's all for today...


p/s : i miss him sooo damn much...

Karma.. =(

Weren't you the one that said, that you don't want me anymore.
And how you need your space, and give the keys back to your door.
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me.
But still you said that love was gone, and that I had to leave.
Now you, talkin bout a family
Now you, sayin I complete your dream
Now you, sayin I'm your everything
You confusin me
What you say to me
Don't play with me
Don't play with me.
Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back
I remember when
I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you
Til 3 o'clock in the morn
And when you came home, you'd always have some sorry excuse.
And explainin to me, like I'm just some kinda fool
I sacrifice the things I want to and do things for you
But when it's time to do for me, you never come through
Now you, wanna be a bond of me (eyyy)
Now you, have so much to say to me (heyy)
Now you, wanna make time for me
What you do to me.
You confusin me
Don't play with me
Don't play with me.
Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back
I remember when
I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you
Til 3 o'clock in the morn
Night after night
Knowin sumthing goin on
Wasn't home befo me
You was,you was gone
Lord knows it wasn't easy, but believe me.
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceived me.
And never do wha u was supposed to do
No need to hose me fool, cause I'm ova you
Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Gotta stop tryin, to come back to me
What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
It's called Karma baby.
And it goes around.
What goes around, comes around,
What goes up, must comes down,
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me



p/s : i always miss him..and always love him..