Tuhan...!

life is not easy...
time nak SPM ni mmg byk dugaan yg dtg...
sometimes that makes me wanna give up on everything...
penat...sedih...
i need somebody....
i need somebody...
i try to forget what happened in the past...but i've forgive him for what he have done to me...
eventhough it really hurts...
hurts a lot...but its okay...
honest is important in every relationship...
i try my best....but when someone does not appreciate what i have done, that hurts a lot...
maybe it is my fault that he had changed...
but no matter what, i still love him so much...
cinta tu sgt indah....
bahagia tak terkata...peritnya juga tak terkata...kecewa pun tak terkata...
hati mmg penat...i miss him soo much...
maybe sekarang dia lebih happy berbanding dulu...
but me??? SUFFER all the time....
mcm mane nak atasi benda ni....
the key is DOA....
penat, kecewa, sedih, lonely kita boleh share dgn Tuhan...
Tuhan sentiasa dgn kita...
biarlah masa tentukan semua...
tapi, apa yang terbuku kat hati ni Tuhan je tau...
harap benda ni tak berlaku lagi akan datang...
hati dan perasaan susah utk kita baca....
tak dendam...
tapi pasrah apa yang terjadi....
yang ada hanya sayang....
i hope that he know that i love him soo much until the end of time...
and hope that he will give me one more chance...i promise to be a better person...
but only if he give me one more chance...
if not....i have to surrender...and stay away from him..
setakat tengok dari jauh pun ok la...
tapi sekarang...ni je yg mampu bagi kat dia...
" you're not alone...i am here with you...though we're far away...i am here to stay...for you're not alone...though we're far apart...you always in my heart...you're not alone...."
hati dia...tak tahu lah...

family...
its unacceptable about what happened...heh...
susah nak cakap...
cukup la apa yg dah jadi...harap ada hikmah semua ni...Tuhan yang tentukan semua...
Doa, Usaha, Tawakkal...


that's all for today...


p/s : i miss him sooo damn much...