i'm back...!

wah..! lamenye x tulis blog...
rindu lah pulak...well...kinda busy buat lesen...
lesen L baru je klua...baru L kot...hahaha...nak tunggu 1 bulan lagi baru dpt P..
hmmm...cm lame jeh...my friend, hanan, went to UK...with her sister...
best kot..! hmm...rindu die...gue serba salah sbb x dpt jmpe die sblum die pegi UK..
sbb time tu amik lesen punye psl...soorrryyy hanan...! kesian die... :(
nnt aku dgn bon belikan ko kek pisang byk2...ko kan suke kek pisang...
sorry yea hanan...! ok...nxt story is..kelmarin my cousin tunang..
she's 23 years old..her name is amy farah...gosh..! she's damn beautiful...!
everything is perfect...hantaran die cantik...ade pelamin lg...kecik je pelamin nye yg bertemakan
warne light pink n putih...sgt cantik...everything is perfect...tunang die sempoi...name die Que..
i don't know his full name..igt name die pon sbb mcm name plakon malaysia tuh..ape bnde ntah name die...start with Q jugak..hahaha..sorry kak farah..nina x igt name tunang akak tuh..hehe
dorg mcm pinang dibelah 10...tinggi pon nk dekat same...hehehe..well...all i wanna say is congrats to both of u...! semoga b'kekalan sampai bile2.... :) sayang kak farah...!






p/s : about him...hmm..how do you feel when the person that u love the most treat u like shit...?
kdg2 nmpk mcm die syg lg...n kdg2 x....what's up with that...? ape mslh kau?
kenape kau jd mcm ni? asl kau mcm dah berubah...? what's going on? can u xplain it to me?
stop treating me like i'm an idiot..

4 a.m

study study study...pkul 4 pg cmni x tido lagi...hehehe...
baru lepas study SEJARAH..
waahhh..! pening...byk gile kne hafal....
well...sebelum tido ni marilah kite bace doa tido...
ape doa tido ea??
lupelahh...
xpe lah...
BISMILLAH pun ckup la... :)
bye!



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p / s : well....i'm ok right now....
thanks to you...
as long as u are really sorry about u have done to me...
is ok..
entah la...tak tau nape la aku syg sgt kat mamat nih....
pelik kan??
org lain sume suro aku move on...
tp...hakikatnye..gue x bole lupekan die sikit pon...
hmmm....
<3 !

Lamenye dah tak berblogging...
malas lah...nak SPM la kononye...
huhu...
tak sabarnye nak habis SPM...!
HEAVEN gile nanti...
plan cm nak g cuti dengan kawan kawan...
g genting ke...tak pun langkawi..
dah tanye ayah...die cm bagi...
ade gak plan cm nak ikut hanan g UK...tgk kakak die kat sane..
but cm susah je nak dpt green light dari mama..
tp yg pasti nak pegi Saudi Arabia...
ayah kate ' that's good idea! '
sbb my aunty pun ade duduk sane...
INSAF sikit g sane...hahaha
insyaallah ok kot...
waah..! tak sabarnye..!
ngeeee...
JOM jalan jalan..! :)
angan angan je lebih..hahaha
result nanti ntah mcm mane la kan...
tp yg pasti usaha...!
Doa.
Usaha.
Istiqamah.
Tawakkal.




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p / s : i hate the way u treat me right now...
to me...that's to harsh...
nak ckp terase..?
sgt terase..!
baling kasut hampir kene muke i??
bg ucapan ' bile nak kurus? '
i tau i ni GEMOK cm baboon...
kot ye nak bahan i pun...tak payah la smpi nak malukan aku mcmtu skali...
heh.
ape motif u buat sume tu??
suke kan?
are u happy and satisfied now????
mane respect u???
thank u about what u have done to me...i really appreciate that...
if stuff like these happens again..
i have to think more than twice to accept u in my life if there is second chance..
RESPECT people dude...!

[ i'm soo pleased ] =D

the way you smile at me,
the way you look me into my eyes,
always make me crazy about you.

one piece of pure heart

always make my heart beat faster everytime I saw you

since the day you left,
my heart started to ache,
the heart ache that i feel,
it is because my love for you is real,
many sleepless night,
because you were always there at my sight,
I tried to close my eyes,
but I always catch your imaginary smiles,
days and months had pass,
i thought i can forget you at last,
because its you I keep on waited.

i loved you then,
and I love you still,
I adore you now,
and i always will.




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p / s : about him?? bacelah yg sudah tertera di atas... :)

Ya..Good Girls Always Gone Bad..

sayang korang...!!!

nah...makan kaki aku.. ( sedap...rase lemak2..nak sikit? )


^ 2 org minah ni sangat menggelikan...^

model import dari negara jiran.. ;D

inilah kami yg sebenar...

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p/s : still thinking about him... :)

Hospital....hospital....

Hospital...i went to hospital these two days...tgk my aunty...
the horror part of the hospital is the EMERGANCY ROOM...
where i can see blood is everywhere...and people die in there..
urgh...takuttt...!
my aunty sakit...actually we don't expect that she had a serious infection...or anykind of disease..
dia just sakit perut...
then...last sunday, dia tak lalu makan..mulut banyak ulser...
and dia ckp tak sedap perut...which is ade something wrong dgn perut dia...
then...mlm ahad tu dia larat...esok pulak dia mengadu sakit...
dia seorang yg sgt susah utk sakit...and susah nak ckp sakit..
then her husband took her to the clinic, to see a doctor...
the doctor said maybe appendix..
then they went to DEMC...
DEMC doctor said its not appendix..because her blood pressure is very low...and getting lower and lower..
maybe internal bleeding...they try to scan everything...they didn't see anything...
so..dorg nak bedah...but not enough blood bag..
and..they transfer my aunty to HTAR, Klang...
operation done in 4 hours...
but.............
she's in a very critical condition....
her blood has somekind of acid...which has seperate to the other organs of the body..
her kidney pun dah tak berfungsi...
jantung pun lemah...blood pressure still low..
tak boleh nak dialysis...sbb blood pressure sgt rendah...
her body was bloated...penuh air..
the doctor try their best to makesure she will get better..
senang cerita...dia tgh sgt kritikal...
nyawa dia sume kne support by machine2 yg sgt byk..and bernafas pon dgn oxygen tank...
sedih sgt....dia la aunty yg sgt baik dgn i...
woah..nak nanges... :'(
yg ade skrg tawakkal...and doa byk2...
hope she well get better soon...
don't leave us....!!!!!!!
we love u...ur kids love u...
please....



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p / s : ........*sigh
i'm waiting for him....

tuuut...

Rindu ema lah...hahaha...dah lame x jumpe die...

xde teman tido...haha...

xde geng nak sepak terajang...

xde geng nak gado...

rindu die...haha..budak kecoh tu...jgn mara ea ema..

yg pasti ema xde x best...

kak sara pulak busy dgn laki die..haha..abg aku jugak...

ema ema...

hari ni ramai nak dtg uma...uncle, aunty sume nak dtg..

kene wat kek horlicks...

and today jugak sleepover kat uma aisyah...yeay..! gossip...! ape lagi...hihi

ade babi teratur kat uma die..hihi...eehh..beratur..

makan lagi..

rasenye badan dah naik berkilo kilo nih...

woah...genduut..pendek pulak tuh..haha

nak wat cmne...

xde gamba raye la..

x syiok...

xpe lah..nanti nanti lah letak...weehhee..

ish..x saba nak habis SPM...!!!!

nak amik drum class...! wohooo...!

yeah babeh...!

shit..! next week sekolah...

*sigh

must give full attention and focus..then i'm free..!!!!!!!!!!

xpe..sekolah pun sekolah lah...

lepas ni x payah fikir psl sekolah tak lame lagi...

menyemak jeh...hahaha...

ok that's all for today... :)

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p / s : i don't what to say about him anymore...

i feel like he has forget everything about me...about us..

i feel empty...really empty...lonely tu x payah cakap lah..

i feel like he's just my secret admire...

where i can love him just by watching him from far...

being friends is great...

but...it's hard for me to let go of him...

everytime i'm with him, he always make me fall in love with him again and again..

and now.......i'm afraid to fall in love again...afraid....

i don't know why...

hmmm....

*sigh