Got fever...damn it..!

Lame nye x tulis blog...well, hari ni baru ade mood nak tulis blog wlpn tgh pening.. :(
soo...where shld i start 1st...hmmm....haaa...smlm, kelmarin dan sblum2 nye...tido uma kazen...sumpah best gilo...! smpi demam2 haaa gilo nye...sbb gua bantai die punye xbox...main GUITAR HERO...sgt best wallaweyh..! at 1st mmg aku bangang..tp bile da practice, i'm getting better n faster menekan butang kat control guitar tuh...yeah!
main lagu PLUG IN BABY...aku main smpi naik hantu..siap lompat2 cm beruk...beruk high class gitu..heee... :D haru biru jgk la uma kazen aku tu sbbkan gilo aku nih...haa..org batak mmg begini.. :D pastu ktorg wat mini BBQ...sgt best..makan makan makan...! :D
dok uma die rase nye naik 5kg kot..asik makan je...kene kurus kurus kurus...! xle jd nih..time BBQ tu sume jenis makanan ade...actually x la sume...mostly byk daging2...daging lembu, kambing, ayam, ikan...dorg hantu daging..aku xmkn sgt daging2 ni...especially kambing...mak oih..kembang tekak eden..so, memandangkan dorg x mkn sgt ayam, ape lg? ayam sume aku yg bantai...heee...sedap wok..! then aku mintak opinion from my aunty and discuss course ape yg patut aku amik...byk sgt aku minat...semak pk..then stelah bincang membincang, aku decide nak amik antare course quantity surveyor or mass comm PR...hmm..skrg tgh otw nak choose antare dua tuh...PR kene byk ckp...aku ni byk ckp ke??? hmmm...quantity surveyor tu ade kire2 sikit...ckp psl kire2 ni...math aku ni hebat sgt ke??? hmmm...well...mencuba x salah kan...?? well...actually mmg aku minat architecture..then my aunty ckp, dlm construction ni, architecture, engineer, QS is the main character...time blaja, architect paling susah coz nak tau byk design...then engineer pulak, time keje susah..nak kne kire mcm2...QS pulak kene tau and bace lukisan architect and engineer, then kire amount barang yg diperlukan utk bina bangunan tu and bg arahan kat contractor...soo...its kinda hard...but cube la...fikir jugak nak amik architect..tp layak ke aku nih?? hmmm...fikir fikir and fikir...time is running out...!! :O








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p/s : i'm still hoping that he'll understand me...about my parents, tu blakang cite...dlm relationship mmg byk risiko...tp knpe xle amik risiko tu sbg cabaran??
why can't u just accept me just the way i am?? why i can accept u just the way u are?? don't ever talk to about TARAF anymore...i really hate it..damn it..! :(

18th birthday..???? *sigh

well...today is my birthday...! ( happy sgt! ) tapi sume org busy....(sedih)
ayah lupe birthday aku.. ( hampanya! ) die kate die igt birthday aku 5 march ni.. ( kecewanya! ) to all my friends, thanks for the wish..korg buat mood aku hari ni b'tukar menjadi sgt happy...sayang korg sangat2 ketat2 kuat2...(^_^) wlpn hari ni sgt bosan sbb sume org busy..especially my family..huhuhu...patutnye aku klua dgn korg hari ni...ish...tp xpe...esk bole klua..hehehe...anyway...thank you sgt2 you guys...! (terharu seh!)




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p/s : i miss him so damn much..i was hoping that he'll text me today and i really hope that he'll be the 1st person to say happy birthday to me...but it's useless...ptg baru die wish..nak nanges...kenapa bila aku mengharap dia org yg 1st utk wish birthday aku, tp org lain yg wish dulu?? kecewa..sedih..hampa..i made a promise last night to called him after his futsal...tp tertido..then i was thinking am i supposed to called him?? today is my birthday...salah ke utk die call aku skali skale?? salah ke klau die text aku during my birthday?? kenapa aku je yg asyik kene amik hati die sedang kan die takde usaha langsung utk tawan hati aku balik?? kate sayang lagi?? tapi?? mane effort nye?? sampai bile nak jadi mcm ni?? sampai bile nak buat aku tertunggu2..??? :'(

It's only for you dear...only you...no one else can ever replace you...

When I found you
I found myself
I found a guy
Like no one else

When I found you
I found my heart
I found it struck
By Cupid's dart

When I found you
I found pure bliss
I found heaven
Deep in your in kiss

When I found you
I found my soul
I found your love
That made me whole

When I found you
I found my dreams
I found out what
Love really means

When I found you
I found a lot
I found true love
I swear to God...
I love you...
But...do you love me??


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The light in your eyes
As you stare into mine
Just makes me see
God's perfect design

The warmth of your hand
The feel of your skin
Moves something inside me
Something deep within

Your feelings so gentle
Your love so sweet
I feel this passion
Every time we meet

And today I give
A promise to you
That my love will be
Honest, Faithful, and True


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You live in my heart,
i won't break it apart,
even if it makes me to cry,
i will love you till i die.

Blood doesn't flow in my vein,
ur thought flows in it as a pain,
I may not be the one for you,
i would have still loved you
even if i knew.

My love is not written on sand,
for the waters to wash away,
it is written in my heart to stand,
all the difficulty that comes its way.

You still live in my eyes,
even after seeing all the goodbyes,
You can go to any place you desire,
the dream of being together will
always burn like a fire.

I still smile looking into the life of yesterday,
to wipe away the tears that you bring everyday,
Nights seems to be getting longer and longer,
with thoughts of u getting stronger and stronger.

My love may not be one happy chapter,
like the saying "they lived happily ever after",
By loving,i have lost everything to you,
what i still possess is just the memories
of once being with you,
I love you till now and forever.



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p/s : i hope you read this dear....i'm sorry if you don't like it...

frust !!!!!!!!!!! urgh...!

ari ni sgt m'frust kan aku...pg2 buta da buat aku xde mood...!! urgh...!!! penat aku buat p'mohonan ipta fasa 1 dulu...then bile nak masuk fasa 2 x bole....mcm sial...!!!! sial nak mampos...!!! geramnye weh...!!!!!!!!! ckp name mak betol, aku nye password x betol lah...ape lah...time aku mohon fasa 1 tu BOLEH je...! ish.....!!! bodoh...!!! nak nanges weh...!!!!

















p/s : not in the mood to talk about him (o.0)

GREAT NEWS...!!!!!!!

AKU PASS TEST JPJ....!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOHOOOOO.....! ALHAMDULILLAH SYUKUR...!!!



p/s : love is like a sand...

ALAM PEKERJAAN... +_+

dah nak hampir 1 minggu aku keje..fuhh..penat x pyh ckp la...lots of things i've learnt
at work...learnt how to attract costumer, how to manage the cafe, how to communicate with costumer, and one thing, it's hard for me to REMEMBER the price...hehehe...ouh Allah..! payah la...hahah...well, i guess i'll try my best to remember all of it...
well..skrg cafe ktorg sgt memerlukan org..majoriti pekeje byk nak stop sbb dorg nak cari pengalaman lain..sbb dah 1 tahun lbh dorg keje kat cafe aku..dulu ktorg cari budak luar bandar...niat nak tolong dorg cari duit mkn..then bile dah lame keje, lame2 dorg naik kpale...dah tunjuk belang masing2...geram..! pastu, bile dah naik kan sikit gaji n konon nye dah naik kan sikit pangkat, mule nak BONGKAK...SOMBONG...they think that they can manage the business very well..pastu ckp BAPAK aku x bole handle cafe..??!!! please la wey...ko igt sikit diri ko tu sape...x reti nak BETERIMA KASIH LANGSUNG...dah la buat kacau dgn rumah tangge abg aku..xde rase malu ke?? pastu...jage la sikit mulut tuh...mentang2 ko dah bagus, sume costumer kenal ko, ko nak mule buat cite yg x senonoh psl cafe aku..tolong la wey...aku benci la org mcm ni...x seda di untung betul...ape ko pk boifren BARU ko tu kaye, ko nak amik kak su keje kat kedai ko yg BARU nak bukak tuh???! konon nak tawarkan gaji yg MAHAL la?? buto pak hang...! boifren ko tu kaye ke or bapak die yg kaye?? heh...da la wey...tolong la...korg ni lame2 merimaskan aku je....cukup la...tu la yg payah bile situasi yg x d'jangkekan t'jd...anyway, thx to korg jugak sbb b'tahan smpi b'tahun2...cume to remind u guys, jgn la lupe diri...buat org menyampah tau x...? haih....






p/s : love??? what do u expect?? i'm sill waiting...still love him...well, just wanna ask, between love and friendship, which one will u choose?? sometimes, its hurt when telling 'i love u' to someone that u love, and he just 'angguk kan kepale je' without saying anything...well, please explain something to me..if it is so hard to explain, just say that u hate me so much...then i'll disappear...i promise...its hard for me...but i'll try to find the way to solve it...*sigh

welcome 2010...! =D

oh my gosh...! it's 2010 now...! wah...! well....new year, new achievement, new friends, new handphones hahaha, new life, everything's new now...no more SCHOOL...! =)
hari tu g celebrate new year kat cineleisure damansara...wow...! sgt havoc kat sane..!
people's getting wild n out of control..agak batak sbb that was my 1st time saw people like that...tmpt tu sgt pack...mcm tin sardin..some of them were kissing with their partners..tak bole bla...get a room people..! we were Malaysian...mane adab tatasusila korg..? well...i don't care what u're doing...but get some place privacy...it's not nice lah..ok..that is none of my business..anyway, yg penting sempat tgk BUNGA API...! hehehe...cantik...! tenganga mulutku...hehe...disco, tmpt snooker sume dibuka...time nih lah dapat untung byk..new year beb..! disco bising gile...pening kpale...pastu ktorg g tgk cite avatar...! sumpah cite tu best...! best sangat..! u guys should watch that movie...! imaginasi cite tu sgt tinggi...! best best best...cume cite tu lame sgt...3 jam...menggigil kot kat dlm wyg tu...huhuhu...balik rumah pukul 5 pagi..! puas jalan..! hehehe... =D









p/s : hmm...sigh..i miss him...but i don't think that he loves me anymore...sometimes he've been acting so weird...i don't know who am i to him anymore...what should i do? until when i wanna wait for him to explain it to me..? gosh...! i can't wait to hear the word that he hates me and he don't need a girl and a friend like me in his life...kalau nak hancurkan hati gua, hancurkan terus...jgn buat gua mcm ni...lg t'seksa kot... :(